The Hardest Post to Write

Hi all; this is going to be a short post.

I’m not going to sugar coat this and say that I’m working through whats going on and that everything is fine because that’s a lie.

On Thursday, June 21st, at 6:17 AM, my dad died. He was in the hospital for a while and was having some trouble getting his blood pressure down. He was discharged Wednesday afternoon after spending four and one half days there. We went out to dinner and shopped at Target. Anyone who knows my family knows that I love Target and my dad did not like browsing stores. We went to target and browsed. We smelled the candles and found walrus socks. We went home and relaxed.

On Thursday morning, after talking and cuddling with each other, mom walked out of the bedroom and found him sprawled on the couch. She thought he was asleep. Later she realized he was too yellow and too unresponsive. She called 911, but he was probably gone before she even called.

A nurse who lives behind us had come over and later said that, as she was running the code, she never felt a pulse or heard a breath. The doctors don’t know why he died. His funeral was on Tuesday.

I won’t say I’m doing perfectly fine. My emotions are a mess. I have been clashing between needing to get out of the house to focus on something else and needing to be at home in my blanket with ice cream and Netflix. I want to constantly be at my mother’s side helping her and catering to her every need but I also recognize the need to keep up with my mental health.

Pray for us all as we go through this rough time and forgive me for the lack of posts.

Kathleen Lucille


Destin 2018

I got back from Destin about two weeks ago know. We stayed in the Destin Army Recreation Center. It is basically a complex of small buildings comprised of hotel rooms, suites, and small apartments available to be reserved for military members and their family. We stayed in a suite (bedroom, kitchenette, and living room) for a week. The drive was 13 hours and we got in a little late. The office was closed but they left our key in a mailbox outside the door.

We spent our entire first day on the beach. We may have fried some brain cells over the winter, or just underestimated the pale-ness. We may have also lost our ability to tan and not burn in the 14 years since we have been living there. Regardless we burned so horribly. I am just getting over the peeling; the horrible red skin left a week ago.

That day on the beach was very relaxing. The water was beautifully warm, the sun was out, and the sand was so soft. We were in the water for a bit, ate lunch and then laid out and fell asleep. It was at this point that we burned I think.

The next day, because we were so burned that we didn’t want to be outside too much so we went to Destin Commons, an outdoor shopping mall. We got some ice cream and then shopped. We stopped in Blue Spero, a clothing boutique, Lush, Forever 21 and Sephora. Blue Spero had really pretty, soft clothes. I got a face mask and lotion at Lush and picked up some of my cleanser at Sephora.

On Saturday we slept in a little, then investigated the Harbor Walk village. I finally found a pair of sunglasses that fit my head. My head is small and I have a difficult time just dealing with a pair of sunglasses that are slightly big. I found some that I liked, and immediately bought them. Saturday night, we drove into Fort Walton Beach to The Original Crab shack. The food was amazing, the atmosphere was amazing, the live music was amazing. I’ll be honest with you, my sunburn was so painful I was having a rough time being happy and enjoying myself but sitting there on the beach with the delicious crab dip, a perfect breeze, and the relaxing music, I was so purely happy.

On Sunday, we drove into Panama City, were I was born, and went to church at St. Dominic’s, our old church. After that we went to our old house and visited some neighbors who were still living in the neighborhood. We just went to Wendy’s for lunch and then found the hospital I was born in. The charge nurse let us into the maternity ward. There weren’t any babies being born so she spent some time with us and we found out that she was a nurse there while we were there being born. She took us into the rooms and took pictures. She was so sweet and gentle and really made the experience amazing.

On Monday we went out on a Dolphin Cruise which was amazing. It was a lovely sunny, cooler day and we saw lots of dolphins. On Tuesday, Olivia and I went paddle boarding in the Bay. It was so much fun, we even saw dolphins in the Bay. At first, when I saw them, I though, “Oh look! Dolphins!” But then I realized, “Oh look. Dolphins.” And I was nervous, because dolphins are amazing and smart and beautiful and I love them, but they are also animals and I was at immediate water level. I loved seeing them 15 feet below me, but the possibility of them being RIGHT next to me was terrifying. Later Olivia and Mom went parasailing and I went along for the boat ride which was fun enough. They had so much fun parasailing. We went with Sun Dogs, which I recommend, they were very fun and professional.

I had so much fun and it was a great kickstart to the summer!

Kathleen Lucille

Spring Favorites

It’s almost summer here but you wouldn’t know by the weather. Today it is 97 degrees and our AC isn’t working as well as it good.

Because it is so hot, I am doing my Spring favorites early. Honestly, I think spring is over and summer has begun for us here in Southern Illinois.

Let’s get started!

First thing is a Bath and Body Works Fragrance Mist. This is the Aqua Marine scent and I am obsessed. It is a very fresh scent without smelling like a cologne. I have been searching for a fresh summer scent for a super long time. I got the travel size and wore it every day for a month. It smells like the air after rain and fresh flowers mixed together. This is perfect.

Next is the Baby Lips Dr. Rescue lip balm. I broke my Ulta Beauty lip oil (glass bottle and tile floor don’t work well together) so I was looking for another super hydrating lip product. I am a little late to the Baby Lips bandwagon, but I was strolling through Walgreen’s so I grabbed this one. It is super light, which I was worried about first, but the hydrating qualities are amazing. I used to use a chapstick and a lip oil at the same time, but there is no need with this.

The Essie Go Ginza has been my all time nail polish lately. I am not allowed to wear nail polish at work, but whenever I have a long weekend of no work or I’m going on a trip, this has been my nail polish of choice.

The last product I am not taking a picture of because it has been in my shower for a month and is looking a little worse for wear with peeling labels and such. The Nair Nourish Shower Power with Argan Oils has been amazing. I can’t even express to you how much this has saved me. I am distantly Native American on my dad’s side. I have so generously been given the opportunity to inherit my dad’s hairy arms. Lighter in color and finer in texture, but hairy arms nonetheless. This has always caused me a little embarrassment in the summer, and I was extremely excited to give this a try. It received high ratings from a friend so I figured, “Why not?” It was amazing. The argan oils really help with hydrating and there are some scents in the formula that help diminish the burning smell. I will always recommend this to anyone.

Thanks so much for reading! Have a lovely day!


Online School Morning Routine

Hello hello hello wonderful readers!

Today I’m back with a short little post, but it’s something super different that I have never done before.

I’m sure some of you already know this, but I’ve been wanting to start a YouTube channel for a long time now, so I finally decided to start one! I’m not planning on doing YouTube for money or views, but just for fun!

So I created my first video specifically to put onto the blog, my Online School Morning Routine!

Click here to watch:

I know I’m going to sound really typical and cringe-y when I say this, but if you liked the video, be sure to give it a thumbs up and subscribe if you’d like to see more! 🙂

-Emma ❤

A Trip to College and Photography

This past weekend I went to visit Franciscan University in Ohio. It was an amazing visit and after a little more research on the academics, I may have found my college.

I had the opportunity to sit in on a class, so I sat in on the Media and Society class. They were finishing a discussion on women in media. We talked about how as so many young children spend more and more time watching TV/Netflix/YouTube, this becomes more and more their reality. These young girls grow up thinking they are limited in their career options because in the shows they watch, the women are the secretaries not the lawyers, the nurses not the doctors, and the unemployed house wives not the wildly successful husband. This doesn’t mean that we who disagree with this standard should have no part in the movie/advertising industry, it means we need to re-enforce the positive experience from all sides.

I took some pictures of my trip.

Its in a super beautiful area with the most amazing rolling hills. The University is at the top top of the hill and Steubenville is below it at night so when it is dark, the lights are all twinkly.

Also recently, our flowers bloomed and, after a rain-shower, the sunset was beautiful so I had to do some photography.

Kathleen Lucille

Passionate Causes

I am passionate about many causes. I think everyone is passionate about something, they may have more or less causes they are passionate about on varying levels of passion, but in short, everyone cares about something. Hopefully.

  1. Gun Control

This for me isn’t about nobody having guns. This is about it being harder for people to get guns. Two people on tumblr said this:

“The kids’ response to the shooting has been something truly incredible. Normally, it’s always been very young children and it’s only their parents that can speak about it. The narrative gets controlled, the conspiracy theorists talk about how it’s all an act, so much bullsh*t. But these are kids who are active on social media, incredibly close to voting age, and they’re demanding their voices are heard. Every single thing that downplays, dismisses or conspiracies the shooting has been subverted by their efforts, and they’re not letting adults who’ve never lived what the lived through control the narrative. ‘It was a conspiracy!’ ‘No we have video evidence of it happening.’ ‘Shouldn’t you be calling 911 instead of making videos?’ ‘We called 911 so many times they told us to stop.’ ‘But he was a troubled child!’ ‘We are ALL troubled, that’s no excuse.’ and it just goes on like this.”


“I said to my husband the other day that, ‘This one feels different,’ referring to this precisely. The whole energy around it feels different These kids are not having this bullsh*it, and while they should not have to stand their ground and fight this battle, godd*mn it they are going to. If the adults won’t, then god*amn it these kids will draw a line and say ‘no, no more, this is bullsh*t.’ I don’t know what it means or how it will play out long term. But there a sense around this whole tragedy that this one is different, and I hope, maybe, that means some actual change is going to come.


The fact that it is taking kids to stand up and say “No, I’m done, this needs to change,” is appalling to me. I hate it.

2. Pro-Life Movement

I am Pro-Life. I don’t mean to say that rape is ok, I will get to that soon. For me, Pro-life includes not using birth control.

“You don’t need birth control, you need self-control.”

-Fr. Mike Schmitz

“My body, my choice” applies to so many things that I agree with such as consent to sex (for me, marital sex, not pre-marital) is a my body, my choice situation. Doctor’s and treatments is a my body, my choice situation. But does your body have two heads, four hands, four legs, two beating hearts, and two different sets of DNA? If it were your body, you would die as well. The word abortion itself comes from the word abort (abort mission) which we all know means end.

Just because abortion is legal does not make it right; remember slavery?

3. Feminism

This one post sums up everything I have to say so I am just going to leave it at this.

Kathleen Lucille

My Morning Routine

Hello everyone, long time no see!

It’s been a busy month, right now my grandma is in town for my sister’s confirmation on Sunday so we have been having a lot of family time. Yesterday, I took my dog to the dog park and on the way to the gas station (on the way home) I ran out of gas. It was an interesting situation seeing as it was my first time by myself, but I figured it out.

So today is a Morning Routine post! Let’s get started!

I usually wake up around seven or eight. If I was working the night before, I may sleep in until eight-thirty. I usually sit on my phone for a bit, checking emails, scrolling through Pinterest. As soon as I’m ready for the possibility of talking to people, I head into the kitchen to make my breakfast.

This morning I had a Spinach Mushroom bowl with an egg. I really love this because the soft yoke of the egg acts like a dressing for the spinach and mushroom. Other mornings I will just fry an egg, make some toast, and cut up an orange.

After this I move into the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth.

These are the products I use every morning for my skin. I start off with my Peter Thomas Roth Water Drench Creme Cleanser. I have talked about this so much you guys must thing I’m sponsored but I’m not. I have actually been using a First Aid Beauty cleanser but I ran out so I’m using this until I go pick up some more. Then I exfoliate with the Biore Pore Unclogging Scrub. Again, I’ve talked about this so much so you all know what I think of it. Lastly, I moisturize using the Glam Glow Glowstarter Mega Illuminating Moisturizer. I wouldn’t say it is as illuminating as it says it is, but it does give me a healthy glow.

Once my face is washed and I am 100% awake, I have to get dressed. We are just started spring here so it is a little chilly most of the time. because I am usually pretty cold anyways, I am still wearing my warm sweaters.

Then I just clean up my room and get started on my school!

Kathleen Lucille

An Update and Chat

The past two weeks have been pretty crazy, I promised a Q and A haven’t gotten around to writing that yet but it is coming don’t worry; keep the questions coming!

My spring break is about halfway done, it goes from Holy Thursday to the Wednesday after Easter and then I start school again the next day, Thursday. I am enjoying this break immensely although, for some reason, I have gotten myself into a Starbucks funk and I don’t like it. Not that Starbucks isn’t delicious, it’s just that I want to have actual energy and not fake energy. It’s also somewhat funny because I didn’t get into this funk while school was still going on, but during break, which is when you would think I would be super well rested.

I’m really looking forward to the end of school this year. We are going to Florida in May, pretty much as soon as school is out and I have already asked off from work for it. Although the summer will be crazy what with visiting colleges and hardcore prepping for the ACT/SAT, (whichever I decide to take) a health class, possibly a photography class, work, being healthy, and the occasional trip, I’m excited for warmer weather. It has pretty much been raining foot two straight weeks here; we have a small pond in the backyard so the poochy has to be kept on his tie-out or he will come in with mud up to his belly. It is supposed to snow tomorrow (Easter Sunday!!) but I don’t think the ground will be cold enough to freeze so nothing should stick.

I have finally fulfilled one of my picture editing/photography milestones and downloaded VSCO Cam on my phone now. I’m a little late to the charge but baby-steps right? I’m super excited for summer to take pictures and edit them. Hopefully then my blogging skills will be ramped up slightly.

I have also been researching a nice camera lately. The one I’m really looking at is the Canon EOS Rebel SL1. It’s at a great beginner level while still being able to produce quality pictures. If anyone has any camera advice I would love comments!

Just a little catch-up to talk to you guys about life right now… How are you??

Kathleen Lucillle

Q+A Questions!!

Hi my lovely readers!

This is super quick today but I am taking questions for a Q and A next week! Submit them in the comment section and I will answer them in the next post; they can be about anything beauty, health, lifestyle, faith related!

See you soon!

Winter Favorites

Hey guys!!! Welcome back, its March and I can finally say that it is starting to feel like spring!!!! Today I come to you with my winter favorites, so lets just get started!

I have talked about the Peter Thomas Roth Water Drench Cloud Cream Hyaluronic Moisturizer a lot. This when I went to Ulta recently, I picked up this cleanser. This is a great cleanser for dry skin. My skin is normally drier in the summer because of the chlorine from swim team, but it is still amazing in the winter with the heating on in houses.

Next up is the Glam Glow Glowstarter Mega Illuminating Moisturizer. I adore this! It’s almost a tinted moisturizer with highlighter as well. I love using it in the morning as a moisturizer as it adds a little bit of a put together look with that little extra bit the highlight adds.

Oh, this body mist. I love this so much. This is the freshest scent I own and I cannot tell you how much I love it. It has notes of ocean water, mint leaf, and wet stone. It literally smells like a spring morning after it rained.

This second cleanser is the First Aid Beauty Pure Skin Face Cleanser. This is a perfect cleanser for combination skin that isn’t too oily. The Facial Radiance Toner Pads are a great toner. I love these, they help with doo many things. Honestly, when we are cleansing our skin, we get rid of all oils good and bad. Toning and moisturizing puts all the good oils back in.

I was in Sephora recently to pick up a concealer. I had a sample of the Nars Radiant Creamy Concealer and absolutely loved it. I decided to splurge and buy it and I absolutely love it. It blends out very nicely and is super light and weightless.

The last item is the Ulta Beauty Juice Infused Lip Oil. I had to Google a picture of it because mine broke. Thats the only complaint I have: it leaked and broke before I was half-way through the bottle. Other than that I think it was a great dupe for the Clarins Lip Oil. Especially in the winter time, the amount of hydration provided was incredible. I often swiped it on before bed and could still feel it in the morning.

I hope you enjoyed this post! Tell me what you are looking forward to this spring!

Kathleen Lucille